Thursday, December 28, 2006

Thursday 13 # 23

Thirteen Gifts I got for Christmas

Bee Gees purse
Jack Vetriano framed print
Dansko shoes
Mary jane crocs
Wooden purse w/handmade prayer beads
Handmade cup by Mattias
Handmade saucer by Niklas
Two rings and a watch
Farside calendar
Thebus leaf sculpture
Lottery tickets
Two shirts

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Thursday 13 # 22

Thirteen Things I Love About My Dogs

Their names Cooper & Elliott
Cooper’s simplicity
Elliott’s love of kisses
Their socialness
Cooper’s Wiggly Body
Elliott’s Chubbiness
Cooper’s fascination with lights and shadows
Elliott’s way of getting Cooper to play with him
That Cooper doesn’t understand how to play fetch
Their closeness to each other
Their compassion
Elliott’s acceptance of Cooper

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Thursday 13 # 21

Thirteen Foods I Like

Cream of Chicken soup
Tuna & Pickles
Ice cream & popcorn
Mashed potatoes mixed with corn
Onion Rings
Pork tenderloin
Steak and gravy
Dill pickle dip

Thursday, November 23, 2006

Thursday 13 # 19

Thirteen Things I Am Thankful For

1. My best mom

2. My second best friend

3. My nephews who I love and adore

4. Elliott & Cooper two of the most precious little guys

5. Ikey Tom, who I miss every day

6. A job that I love

7. Happy medicine

8. My education

9. A father who loved me

10. My creativity

11. Outlook

12. A place to call home

13. Me being me

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Thursday 13 # 18

Thirteen Songs I am Removing From My MP3 Player

  1. I want to see your pussy – Lords of Acid
  2. Dance, Dance (the blank version)
  3. 3 of the 5 copies of Every Time We Touch
  4. Oh Carolina
  5. Time After Time – the acoustic version
  6. Rave On (techno)
  7. Heaven is an orgasm
  8. I hear the bells
  9. Buffalo stance
  10. Everything I do…
  11. Unfaithful mix
  12. Temperature
  13. Gimme some lovin’

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Thursday 13 #18

Thirteen Reasons I Need 4 More Hours Today
  1. I need to write nearly 3000 words to make up for yesterday and today
  2. I need to spend time with Maribel
  3. We had a staff meeting at work and I didn’t get to plot anything
  4. I got my movie in the mail and I want to watch it
  5. I filmed Hangin’ with the Homeboys this morning and want to watch it
  6. I went gambling when I didn’t really want to
  7. Instead of just bringing home some food I insisted we go out to dinner
  8. I don’t think I will get anything done at work tomorrow
  9. I took Saturday and Sunday off from writing when I should have written at least 4000 words each day
  10. I am too determined to just give up on NaNo right now
  11. I spent more time being nosey than doing work
  12. Dick is being a prick and playing petty games
  13. I won’t just stay up and do what I want/need to do…I’ll just go to bed

Thursday, November 02, 2006

Thursday 13 # 17

Thirteen Things in the November Plan

  1. NaNoWriMo – National Novel Writing Month – it is started and as of this very minute, there are 933 words, only 49,067 to go
  2. Operation Procrastination Reduction – I am trying to procrastinate less.
  3. Scrapbook – it is becoming the bain of my existence
  4. Calendar – a gift for my aunt
  5. Clean up my MP3 player – it is a nightmare what is on there.
  6. NoJoMo – National Journal Month – an entry a day
  7. Bill Filing – it has been piling up for months
  8. 21 Eyes – yeah, I couldn’t wait to get it, and I still haven’t watched the whole thing. I am bad
  9. With any luck – HS Pilot
  10. Dresser drawers – I have to weed them out…again
  11. Finish up Christmas for my sister’s family…I am ½ way there!
  12. LOS calculations – it’s work related, but I hate doing it…so it goes with #2
  13. Find a new myspace layout I like!

Thursday, October 26, 2006

Thursday 13 # 16

Thirteen Things That Make Me Tune Out

Talk of children that are not my nephews
Talk of bodily functions
Stories that I have heard over and over and over
Bitching about the same stuff and the same people
Talk of elderly parents/grandparents
Your drinking days
How you did this and that and how important you think you are
Sci-fi talk
Any sort of programming/networking crap
Things I simply don’t understand
Any sort of meeting

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Thursday 13 # 15

Thirteen Smells I Like

1. Suave Milk & Honey Shampoo & Conditioner
2. Avon Naturals Vanilla
3. Burnt Matches
4. Pipe Tobacco
5. Lemon
6. Brut Cologne
7. Burt's Bee's Herbal Deodorant
8. Rain
9. Raspberry
10. Oranges
11. Rubbing Alcohol
12. Rosmary & Thyme body wash
13. Lilacs

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Thursday 13 # 14

13 Things on My To Do List

Writing Prompt
Scrapbook for uncle
Watch 21 Eyes
Spanish Homework
Clean out dresser drawers
Pay Bills
Email to do folder
Watch Nip/Tuck Seasons 2&3
Give dogs baths
Clean out car

Thursday, October 05, 2006

Thursday 13 # 13

13 Memorable Materialistic Gifts

  1. Barbie Dream house – my dad spent all day putting it together. I cried.
  2. Poison by Ed McBain – The book that got me started on Ed. My mom gave it to me one day when I was home sick. I couldn’t put it down.
  3. IBM Computer – I came home and found it in boxes and couldn’t wait to set it up.
  4. Joan Jett Tape – my sister bought it for me for Christmas and it had an orange scratch and sniff sticker on the wrapping paper.
  5. First camera – I got it for Christmas the year we watched Miracle on 34th Street and could open one present per commercial.
  6. Oliver – my first dog that quickly became Mom and Dad’s dog. What a cutie.
  7. First CD player – I got it for my birthday and the first CD I bought was the Singles soundtrack.
  8. Cabbage Patch Kids – my first one was backordered and it just happened to come in on my birthday. My second was the camera Christmas.
  9. Handmade Sister Quilt – the first handmade full size (twin size) quilt my sister made by all by hand. It was for graduation.
  10. Mommy Quilt – my second one. My mom made my sister’s first and mine came along eventually. I have both and cannot be without one at night.
  11. First tea set – I remember opening in on Christmas morning…we open everything on Christmas Eve…but Mom put some out on Christmas morning.
  12. The Tempo – my first car. My parents went to buy a new tv and came home with a new car for Mom, so I got the first blue penguin.
  13. Blue Lava Lamp – I remember that the tag said “To Heather From Dad”, not Mom & Dad, just Dad.

Thursday, September 28, 2006

Thursday 13 # 12

Thirteen Movies I Will Never Watch Again

1. Vanilla Sky
2. Dumb & Dumber
3. Ace Ventura
4. Showgirls
5. Snake Eyes
6. Passenger 57
7. True Romance
8. Minority Report
9. Mission Impossible
10. Mission Impossible 3
11. Wild Things
12. Two for the Money
13. Eyes Wide Shut

Thursday, September 21, 2006

Thursday 13 # 11

Thirteen Things in My Purse

1. Wallet
2. Notepad
3. Conference schedule
4. Sunglasses
5. Jewelry pouch
6. Snickers wrapper
7. Handful of rubber bands
8. Keys
9. Lip balm
10. Ice Breakers gum
11. Medicine
12. Tide To Go stick
13. Dr. Pepper cap

Thursday, September 14, 2006

Thursday 13 # 10

Thirteen Random Things on My Desk

1. Movie Plot Generator book
2. Fallen Angels book
3. Mesh Caddy with paperwork
4. Wedding photo of my parents
5. Metal eiffel tower
6. Printer
7. Lime green card file
8. Justin Timberlake cd
9. Avon Foot Works Cooling Foot Spray
10. 21 Eyes DVD
11. Picture of Ike Thomas
12. Amoeba paperweight
13. Notebook

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

He is finally home!

He is finally home! Today the blue penguin returned home. And best of all, his hospital stay was free! Since the alternator was only a few months old, it was still under warranty for labor and parts and well everything! So to celebrate, I bought the new Justin Timberlake cd.

Work was good. I got all my stuff to be a notary. I am official now. Whoopee

I saw a dead dear on the way home. That was sad.

I am all registered for Beginning Spanish. Part of the adult ed courses at the high school. I can’t wait. I am thinking about teaching one or two classes in the spring. Word and/or Excel. I have to call the lady and get some information.

It seemed like I had so much more to say. Oh well.

Monday, September 11, 2006

an entry about today

If you think this is going to be an entry about today, you are so wrong. This is going to be an entry about today. I think that I may have figured out why I get so pissy in the mornings when I get to work. I am used to being the first person in the office. I get myself organized for the day ahead and prepare myself for people. When I get to work now, people just come at me with stuff before I even get signed in. It pisses me off. I need 15 minutes to get myself together. At least let me put my bags down!

I guess I don’t have a lot to say. Started a couple of new journals (weight loss and writing). I got almost everything on my to do list done…with the exception of exercise. Maybe tomorrow…maybe not…it just depends.

I am still waiting to get my car back. It has been a week! I miss him. Apparently it is the alternator, even though they insisted that it wasn’t. There is some sort of short in it and it is draining my battery. Now, I don’t think that I should have to pay anything, because I bought the damn thing from them and they installed it. But, I know that I will have to pay something…or rather charge something.

Some people at work found my myspace site. Not exactly what I wanted, but then again, I put it out there and I wasn’t too original with my handle, using my personalized plates. It’s not as if it is that exciting. I have three friends and one of them comes with signing up. Theresa is my other friend and then some other dude who wanted to be my friend. I think he might just be full of himself and wants to have a friends list of all chicks…if only he knew I am not some sort of slut. On the flipside of having co-workers find my site…I found a dude I went to school with who has totally lied on his space and left out the fact that even though he is married, he is gayer than a three dollar bill, and he lists “someday” in the having children section…his deluded wife has popped out two, premature, very expensive Medicaid children. I also found my cousin’s wife’s site, one co-worker, but that doesn’t really count because he told us about it.

I should be writing now, but I am going to go read my erotic romance, which is basically porn with cheesy life vignettes interspersed.

Thursday, September 07, 2006

Thursday 13 # 9

Thirteen Things I Like About Myself

My pug nose
My sense of humor & quick wit
My boobs – they are all natural
That people like to talk to me and vent to me
My education
My creativity
My heritage
My hair
My intellect
My morals & work ethic (even though I am doing this at work)
My uniqueness
My ears
My lips

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Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Fall Lineup Predictions

Okay kids, it is time for me to make my fall television new show predictions...

Let me preface this by saying that I don’t watch sitcoms, so I am taking a stab in the dark when it comes to how those will fair.

· 20 Good Years – I say that this will develop a sort of cult following like Arrested Development and Third Rock did.
· 30 Rock – I don’t watch SNL, but I think there is too much hype and this won’t last. Especially not with Studio 60 in the mix.
· Big Day – An entire season set around mishaps on your wedding day? I half expect to see Keifer Sutherland in a veil carrying a bouquet of callalillies. I say NO
· Brothers & Sisters – This could be the show that Sex and the Cityiers are waiting for. Keeping my fingers crossed.
· Friday Night Lights – Monday Night Football is more than enough. Okay for a movie, but not ready for prime time.
· Happy Hour - No
· Help Me Help You - Dr. Phil is one therapist too many on tv. I say NO
· Heroes – Milo is not having such a great run of luck lately and I don’t think this will fair any better.
· Jericho – Nuclear clouds? How depressing.
· Justice – May be able to ride the coattails of Bruckheimer’s CSI trilogy. Plus Kerr Smith is kind of hot.
· Kidnapped – The whole season centers around one kidnapping. People, we already have 24, we don’t need just one story line shows.
· Knights of Prosperity – Good thing Mick Jagger has music to fall back on.
· Men in Trees – Might just be the next Northern Exposure
· Notes From the Underbelly - Sounds like Sex and the City for the married, child loving crowd. Not my cup of tea.
· Runaway - Donnie Wahlberg is a good actor, so I am hoping this takes off for him. That being said, I probably won’t watch it, because I forget about networks other than Fox, CBS, and NBC.
· Shark - Looking forward to this show. James Woods plays a dick really really well.
· Six Degrees - This is the first I have heard of it and probably the last.
· Smith – This story seems played out. Ray should stick to guest starring gigs.
· Standoff - Okay, finally something to sink my teeth into. The acting is terrible and that is just from the previews. The premise is so cliched. These characters might live on in 50 or so fan fics floating around the web.
· Studio 60 on the Sunset Strip - This is a big ticket for NBC. I am thinking Las Vegas meets West Wing.
· The Class - I don’t remember anyone from third grade. Stick a fork in it, it’s done.
· The Game - You can make it any sport you want to, it will not make it to the playoffs.
· The Nine - There are going to be people who love this show and they will be greatly disappointed, when ABC pulls the plug on it.
· Til Death – This is the show Everybody Loves Raymond fans have been waiting for. Fox needs this sitcom to take off and replace exiting Arrested Development and That 70s Show.
· Ugly Betty - I don’t think America is ready for Betty. We still like to see the pretty people on tv.
· Vanished – The 24 fans are going to tune in to see if Walt had something to do with his wife’s disappearance. That and they have nothing else to watch until January
To Recap

20 Good Years - Yes
Big Day - No
Brothers & Sisters - Yes
Friday Night Lights - No
Happy Hour - No
Help Me Help You - No
Heroes - No
Jericho - No
Justice - Yes
Kidnapped - No
Knights of Prosperity - No
Men in Trees – Maybe
Notes From the Underbelly - No
Runaway – Good Chance
Shark - Yes
Six Degrees - No
Smith - No
Standoff - No
Studio 60 on the Sunset Strip - Yes
The Class - No
The Game - No
The Nine - No
Til Death - Yes
Ugly Betty - No
Vanished - Yes

Monday, September 04, 2006

an erotic romance

Once again, I don't feel like I accomplished anything this weekend. Unless you count running up my credit card as something. Well not entirely true...I cleaned out my closet. The only reason I did that was because I bought new clothes and needed a place to put them. I had such high hopes for this weekend too. I was going to dust and clean my bedroom, clean my bathroom, file, get my budget done for this week's paycheck, organize my work stuff, get some writing done. I still have a little bit of time left, I guess I could do something. Maybe I will get my work stuff organized and ready for tomorrow. I was going to do my confirmations yesterday, but I don't have the phone numbers because, against my first instincts, didn't bring my rolodex home.

I ordered two books off of amazon on Friday. The one I found at Barnes & Noble when we went to Missoula, but I didn't buy it. I had hoped to find it at Hastings...but wasn't too surprised when they didn't have it. After all it is an erotic romance. I wish I would have remembered when I was at amazon to look for the postsecret book. I would have looked in Missoula, but I didn't go with a book list in mind. I wasn't even sure we would go there. Oh yeah...we went to Missoula on Friday. That's where I bought all my clothes.

Found out Thursday that I am going to go to Missoula again later this month for the MCA conference. It will be a new experience because I have to share a room with someone other than my family. I think it will be okay. Kathy seems nice enough.

I have to make a decision soon if I am going to do this whole novel thing. I want to, but so far, I am not feeling the idea like I should be. It seems like there is another story in my head but it is afraid to come out. Time will tell

Thursday, August 31, 2006

Thursday 13 # 8

Thirteen Names I Like
1. Jebediah
2. Wesley Ann
3. Hadley
4. Addison
5. Nikolai
6. Frederick
7. Mirabella
8. Ignacio
9. Rafael
10. Connor
11. Karis
12. Carrington
13. Teague
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Monday, August 28, 2006

They chose the dude

I am so bad. I haven’t written in a while. Thursday 13’s don’t count. I don’t even have a good excuse. I have just been lazy. All I do is read email, blogs and watch tv.

A few weeks ago I may have mentioned applying for a job with corporate. Well I did it…then I went on corporate’s website and figured that a lot of people would be applying (the job pays more that some program administrators make). Well last Tuesday I get a phone call that only two people applied…me and some other dude. Last Wednesday I went and did a skills assessment…it took about 3 hours. Then, last Thursday or Friday I got a phone call about an interview this Wednesday. I am so freaking nervous. I can’t help but daydream about getting the job (I even had a tarot reading last Wednesday that said I would be offered a new job). I hate when this happens, because when I am rejected, I go into a deep depression for a few days and usually end up crying myself to sleep. I have been trying everything I can think of to get my mind on something else, but it is not working. Today was a little better, but everyone at work, god bless them, keeps telling me that I will be great and that I will probably get the job. Problem, I don’t think I will get it. Why? Because I never get what I really want. Case in point…I thought the interview for my current job was the worst thing ever. I told everyone that it didn’t matter if I didn’t get the job and believe me it didn’t. I mean I wanted an offer, but my world was not going to end if I didn’t get one. I wasn’t going to lose any tears over it. So what happens? I get the job. Another case…I really wanted this job with chemical dependency. I interviewed, sent a thank you letter, did everything right. I found out that it was between me and some other guy. I could taste this job. I had already begun packing up my apartment in Helena to move back to Butte. They chose the dude. I had a complete breakdown. I mean, breakdown. I was off work for a week and a half. I had to go to the therapist every other day. Now, my total breakdown wasn’t just because of the job…they changed my meds and it just happened at the same time. But still, when I found out I didn’t get the job, I was so depressed. I drove home after work that night and cried the entire hour long trip. I took the next day off and sulked around the house. I fear that will happen again. I think not as bad, because I like my job and am not trying to leave a bad situation like last time, but still…it scares me. And believe me, there is no way to prepare for rejection. I have tried and still continue to. It is impossible.

Other than all that…everything else is going good. I think I am losing interest in the novel. I just can’t come up with any plotting ideas. I don’t have any scenes worked out. I have a funny tingling sensation in my fingers right now. It feels kind of neat. I am poor. I got paid on Friday and now my money is gone. I don’t know what I am going to do next week. I guess time will tell. Perhaps Ed McMahon will stop being a greedy bitch and bring me a check.

Thursday, August 24, 2006

Thursday 13 # 7

Thirteen Random Images on My Computer

Sunday, August 20, 2006

I find it highly annoying and childish

I sometimes think that I am odd or just too…I don’t even know the word for it. What brought this on? I find some things to just be too annoying, to grating on my nerves. For example, in my writing group, there is a person who has something she calls a silent voice and what others might call personality. She signs her name and then something descriptive (the confused SV). I don’t know why but I find it highly annoying and childish. I think that it would have been something I would have done in my 20s but then after seeing it show up a few times in emails, would have found it to be stupid and would have discontinued it. I did something sort of similar, I used to sign things Iggy. Why Iggy? It was cute. I don’t have any cute nicknames that people call me. I get pissed when people shorten my name to Heath. I mentally have to add the er. I tried changing my name once to Ann. There is even evidence of this…I made my mom a plate for mother’s day and signed, right on the plate, “love Ann”. Even when playing make believe, I had to have a cute name. But, I am older now and I don’t do that anymore. I don’t even really pick out names for children. I do pick out names for my characters, but even that has become increasingly difficult. Tonight, to decide on a name, I put them into a hat and had to draw some out.

Wow, this has taken an entirely different slant than originally planned. Oh well, that’s my prerogative.

So the weekend is over and I have a little more to show for it than usual. I replaced all the knobs on my dressers so now they match and have a little more pizzazz. I moved one dresser back into my room and the big tv cabinet out. The tv corner is brighter and I uncovered a picture I almost forgot about. I read my magazines, got a new shirt and jacket, gained a pound, and dusted my bedroom. I also set my self up for a let down. I made the mistake of looking at the program powerpoints and found out that most of the program administrators make less than the job I applied for, which probably means some of them applied for it and I don’t stand a chance. Not that I stood much of one before. I have decided that if I get an interview and they say, “Why should we hire you”, I am going to respond, “I know I can do the job well and I just need an opportunity to prove myself.” Or something along those lines. I am almost looking forward to tomorrow because it will be like a Friday without Tom and Brian. It also means that Scott and Pete will be jockeying for position as to who gets to be the supervisor. Note: I almost used first initials instead of their real names because for some reason, I thought that someone I know might actually read this. I don’t even think the people I work with know that blogs exist.

I have to work on my opposition and other character sheets this week. I changed my lead character. I just had the hardest time this week trying to get behind my original choice. It didn’t work, so I spent over three hours trying to find the perfect person. I can link people to each other like magic now. I can’t believe I spent over three hours on What a colossal waste of time. Maybe not, I finally found the right person…I just can’t remember how. I even gave her a cute name…

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Thursday, August 17, 2006

Thursday 13 #6

Thirteen Things That Scare the Jeebies Out of Me

1. Heights
2. Thunder & Lightning
3. The Grinch
4. Criticism
5. Death of close family members
6. Bridges
7. Fireworks
8. Failure
9. My dogs getting out of the yard
10. Circus
11. Snakes
12. Elevators
13. Wind

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Monday, August 14, 2006

I give advice, so I have to take it

Fire fire everywhere. I have my bedroom window open with the fan in and the smoke is almost overwhelming. You would think the forest fires were in our backyard instead of 80+ miles away. This is typical August for Montana though.

Work was okay. I am still a little pissed with Kim. I just wish she could do her job and do it right, so that I don’t have to pick up the slack. Well, I should say so that I didn’t have to pick up the slack, because I am not doing it anymore. I did it for last week’s progress reports, but I don’t have time to do it anymore. I barely have time to put in the reports, let alone add up the scores.

I put in for a different job with the company. I might get an interview out of it…a big might. But that will be about all. I did it because I am interested in the job and think that I would totally kick ass in it, and because I give advice, so I have to take it. I tell Billie Jo all the time that she should put in for jobs because it shows she is interested in advancing, so I thought I better take my own advice. The job pays twice what I make now and requires a ton of OT and travel. Of course you don’t get paid for OT because it is salaried…but it would be an awesome advancement. If only this was the change the psychic was talking about. If it turns out to be, I will definitely go back to the freak.

The weekend was quiet. I only lost one pound, which I half expected, but it is still a loss. I didn’t do much…except I finished my lead character sketch. Now, I can get started on part four.

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Thursday 13 #5

Thirteen Things That Pissed Me Off This Week

It being implied that I might steal someone’s idea for a novel, for simply putting together information from public emails/posts into a condensed, readable format.

The rental car not having power windows, power doors, cruise control.

Getting group assignment sheets for every person in someone’s group because she thinks she’s important and is to fucking stupid to get updated rosters.

Skanky people who spend their time in the boss’ office kissing ass and other things.

That #1 made me go to bed angry, wake up angry and put me in a crabby mood for the entire next day.

That I couldn’t come up with a decent suppose.

That my car wasn’t ready when they told me it would be. I miss my cruise control.

That people start rumors and believe things without having correct information.


The asshole who pulled out in front of me on the highway and made me brake.

That I paid $5.00 to watch a movie that wasn’t very good and that I will have to shell out another $3.50 for when it comes out on video just so I can hear what they said.

That it was $.07 a copy at Staples and my copies didn’t come out in order.

That there is no decent television programs this summer.

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Tuesday, August 08, 2006

4% of the people

4% of the people who voted on’s pole believe that Paris Hilton will keep her celibacy promise. I am not one of the 4%. I don’t really care, I just like to vote in stupid poles. It is less hectic than trying to vote in a real election.

Work – good.

I have named the rental car Ghetto Superstar. Ghetto because it lacks features that should be standard. Superstar because it is brand freaking new and bright freaking red.

I finally came up with my suppose. Suppose the police are baffled by a series of murders, at first thought to be suicides. It came out of my idea box and I thought it would be interesting. We’ll see what happens.

Tonight, I have to read about lead characters. I have an idea, I just don’t have a name anymore. I had a name for over 2 years and then the fuckers over at Grey’s Anatomy used it and I don’t want anyone thinking that is where I got the name from. Fucking Grey’s.

The wind is blowing here. I hate the wind. It scares me. A lot. I am 30 years old and I turn up the music real loud to avoid hearing the wind and thunder and hard rain. I am a 30 year old frady butt. (I don’t like cats).

It seems to me that there was something I was going to be opinionated about, but as with a lot of things lately, my mind as been etch e sketched.

**Edit** I did this chart for the writing group and thought that others might like it, well some did and apparently some didn't but are to chicken shit to say anything directly to me. So, fuck it, I wasted all that time at work and I'm not doing it anymore. Quite honestly, I am very bitter right now, but still, honestly I don't give a fuck what the others write. I am doing it for myself, not for them. I guess some people are worried I am going to use their ideas...they are not that fucking great. First, they put them on a public message board, second, it was a nice gesture, third, we are all adults and should be on the honor system. Yeah, I am definitely upset about this right now...but in a few months, I will look back on it and think, "Jesus, Heather, what the fuck was your problem?"

I also changed my suppose to ...While investigating a series of murders made to look like suicide, the lead detective finds herself in the middle of an internal affairs investigation.

Fuck, I am still pissed off.

Monday, August 07, 2006

...victory red...

I felt so girly and flirty and sexy and pretty today. I love when I plan an outfit in my head and it turns out to be just right. It was a good day.

I took my car into the shop to get it fixed tonight…it can’t come back soon enough. Seriously, this rental is cheaped out. It is a 2007 Chevy Cobalt, victory red, no power windows, no power doors, no cruise control. WTF? I rely heavily on my cruise control. I set it at the top of the hill and take it off a mile before my exit. This means that I will have to monitor and control my speed. The only thing this car has going for it is that it has signal lights and a pretty good engine…I think. Other than that, I may as well be Fred Fucking Flintstone. In 2007 they are still making hand crank windows in cars? Are you fucking kidding me? Unbelievable. I came so close to turning around and saying…give me the PT Cruiser.

I still haven’t come up with a suppose. I am supposed to work on that tonight. So, I am trying to get as much of my to do list done now, so that I can watch the Closer and then shower and then maybe figure out a suppose. It is stressing me out. It is not supposed to stress me out. UGH!

Oh, by the by, for whomever is reading this, I am discontinuing the Random Plot Generator. One, there was no response to it, and two, I don’t feel like being that creative every Sunday on top of trying to write a novel. I had an idea to replace it with something else, but I didn’t write it down, and now I can’t remember what it was.

Sunday, August 06, 2006 a negative way...

How sad is it that you need a “to do” file in your “to do” file? I have that…now. Seriously, there are things in my email to do file that I just don’t have time to do right now. I thought that I was caught up with the reading for group…finally and then I find out that the fucking workbook doesn’t follow the book. I wish the moderator would just put up a reading schedule. I feel so far behind because I can’t come up with a suppose (Suppose Jack dumps Marianne and she goes on a killing spree) for my novel. I think I can come up with a decent suppose, but then I am supposed to give my lead some sort of crisis that affects their life in a negative way. I just can’t come up with one. Well, I can come up with one; I just can’t decide how it would all work out in the end. Fuck!

Anyway, back to the to do files…I think that I am going to unsub to some groups that I just don’t read anything that comes through anyways. I have never read one post in the NCIS group and there are a couple of groups that are not active. I have been thinking about posting to daily writing though. That is of course if I make the time (15 to 20 minutes) to actually do a prompt. I am trying to do too much again. I have all the grandiose ideas and then I fall flat. Kind of like this novel writing thing. If I get two chapters done, I will be proud of myself. I don’t see myself completing an entire novel. So why am I even bothering? I want to prove myself wrong. A little mental, I know.

I went to see Miami Vice today…that movie sucked. Not as bad as some movies I have seen, but it is no blockbuster got to see again movies. Well, actually I do have to see it again because I either need closed captioning or I need it to be louder. The previews and commercials were super loud and then the movie seemed to go down in volume. It also seemed like they were mumbling a lot too. I had trouble getting past Colin Farrell’s hair. It looked so greasy and dirty, I just wanted to wash it, cut it off and shave that hideous mustache off of his face. Further, I don’t think I like Jamie Foxx that much. I liked him in Bait, but after that…nothing. I think that Miami Vice was great back in the day, but today it is more of a Bad Boys generation. One final thought, I really wish they would not have waited until the credits to play Non Point’s version of In the Air Tonight.

This was a great weekend. I slept late Saturday…won enough money to buy the boys some beds and toys. Went to the movie, no matter how it sucked, got some reading done, rearranged my room a little bit, and I got my exercise room. Yes, this was a good weekend.

Friday, August 04, 2006

I have no plans

The weekend is here and I have no plans. Well that’s not entirely true. I may get my office/gym back. I am trying to decide if I want to have a bedroom and an office or if I want to keep living like I am in a studio apartment. Right now, I don’t have the tv on and I feel like I could write for hours. Next week, however I might have the tv on and be more into that then into my writing. Of course, right now, I just want to get this over with and go read. I feel so motivated to start writing that I just want to read the book and get caught up with everyone else. But then, I have all these tasks that I am supposed to complete and I feel guilty snuggling on the bed reading.

Work was good. Another quiet Friday. I wish all days were like today. I would never be behind and the db might be on the server.

I didn’t do anything but email and my Thursday 13 last night. We went out to find a UPS drop box because I didn’t like the vest I got from LL Bean and after that we made a surprise on me trip to Walmart to get an indoor kennel. Now we need to make another trip to get another one. Then we stopped at the mall and then I put the kennel together. So…I didn’t get much of my tasks done last night and I didn’t make a task minder for tonight. I am punting.

Well, I am going to go make my bed and read my glorious books.

Thursday, August 03, 2006

Thursday 13 #4

Thirteen Television Shows I Watch(ed) Faithfully

1. TJ Hooker

2. CSI

3. The Hat Squad

4. VH1 - I Love the 80's, 90's, etc

5. Closer

6. Macruder & Loud

7. E/R (not ER)

8. Three's Company

9. Miami Vice

10. St. Elsewhere

11. Sex and the City

12. Entourage

13. NCIS

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Karen W
Jenny Ryan

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Wednesday, August 02, 2006

But sadly they have

How exciting! I got my books today. Not just my writing book, but my Ed McBain book. In case anyone is wondering, I am one of the biggest Ed McBain fans out there. I dedicated a lot of money and time to tracking down every single 87th Precinct book a few years ago. I can read them over and over again. I never want them to end. But sadly they have. Ed died last year. This new book, Learning to Kill, is a compilation of his early short stories and other pieces.

I had a super great day at work too. Nothing thrilling happened, I just was able to get the stats for July done and I did a couple new reports. George and Bob really liked the write up/incident report summary that I did. Now, I will do those every two weeks and a monthly summary. 71% of our write ups were written warnings and a good portion of those were Failure to stand for count, which if becomes an actual write up can send a guy straight to prison. I also got to tour the juvenile facility. It actually made me quite jealous. Our facility is a shit hole, which we have known from day one, but after seeing the juvi facility, makes it look like a shit hole’s shit hole.

Tonight, I am going to read! Go figure. Now I just need to find my book light so I can read in bead without lighting up the whole room. I used to know where everything was…and then we cleaned out the back room so we Mom could paint…so now I can’t find anything.

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

I know one thing

I developed a new To Do List yesterday at work and today I got everything on it done and prepared tomorrow’s as well. I figure that this will last for the rest of this week and perhaps through Tuesday of next week. I do this all the time, and then somewhere along the way, I fall back into my procrastination habits.

I know one thing…I am deleting all of my reminders in outlook because every time I am in the middle of typing it fucking dings and pops up and messes me up.

That is the excitement of my day. Unless you count making an appointment to get my car fixed because four weeks ago, while shopping for work, some guy backed into me in the Walmart parking lot and they finally called me last week and said that they are accepting liability on his policy. Oh, I also picked up Elliott’s picture. It is not as good as I expected, but it was free and she was crazy. Now, I am going to photoshop Cooper’s picture so that he doesn’t feel left out.

I really wish I would have done 2nd day shipping on my Marshall Plan books. I am itching to do the next assignment, but I don’t have access to chapter 2, so it makes it a little hard. Eh…I probably won’t follow through on the “course” anyway.

Monday, July 31, 2006

There is no reward to taking a vacation

I am fairly certain that, when looking at an online baby announcement, when you see the baby your reaction is not supposed to be a shudder, followed by “Oh, Jesus Christ!” Yet, that was my reaction when seeing little Mylee.

There is no reward to taking a vacation. You know the term “Mountain of Paperwork”? I hate that freaking term, because, I mean really, who has a mountain of paper work? Yeah. I did. Seriously, I had a mountain of binders on my guest chair, paperwork stacked about six inches high and I am missing some progress reports. It took me all day to get through last Thursday. Tomorrow, I have to do Friday and Monday, plus try to squeeze in tomorrow itself. I would like to take Cari and strangle her. She scheduled nine fucking people to come in tonight. We don’t have room for five! Let alone that today is the last day of the month, which means tomorrow is the first day of the month. On the first day of the month, the bill needs to be done for DOC. That means that I have to have all of my reports in. Monty got the number wideled down to 6. 6! It’s almost as bad as 9! I have to go in first thing, do my Pop Report then enter 6 fuckers into the db so that I can email the reports to Kim. Ugh!

I started my new schedule today. So far, so good. Of course it helped that I was done with dinner by 5 o’clock. Actually that gave me time to put my new license plates on, fix Mom’s table and check my email, which according to the schedule is to begin in 24 minutes. It also helped that I got up ½ hour early to exercise. Actually I am supposed to be exercising right now too…but baby steps. I figure, Tuesday and Thursday I will do two work outs, abs and cardio. Monday, Wednesday and Friday I will do cardio in the morning. It’s a plan.

I did something stupid. Which isn’t new, but yet it is. I ordered three more writing books. Two I ordered as part of this new group I joined following the Marshall Plan. Apparently, I am going to write a novel in a short amount of time…I don’t expect to follow through with it, but I am going to at least give it a go. Now I am just waiting for the books to show up. I did do my first assignment…I write Police Procedurals. That’s it…that was my first assignment, define my genre.

I just realized that our City/County web page sucks ass. Seriously it is like they threw up in a template and published it. And why was I looking at the City/County web page? I was looking up the library hours because I was going to run up there if they were open, which they aren’t so it doesn’t really matter now.

Sunday, July 30, 2006

that was a nice sorprender

This week begins my new schedule. I am going to get up 1/2 hour early so that I can do the gazelle for 15-20 minutes. Then, after dinner, I have to exercise again and do all my emails that day instead of just shoving them into the To Do folder. I had to go through 30+ emails today. I also have to start writing again. Mom read somewhere that if you do something consistently for 21 days, you are more likely to keep doing it. Tomorrow is day 1.

I was worried that with how crazy last week was, I wouldn't loose any weight, but I did loose a pound so that is good. I fully expected to gain so that was a nice sorprender.

So why was last week so crazy? Well my sister and her family came for a visit and they showed up a day early! I had so many plans for last Sunday, but then Saturday night she called and said “We’re leaving tonight. See you for breakfast tomorrow.” It was crazy. Everything that I had planned went right out the window. Including work. I was going to work Monday and Tuesday and take Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday off…but instead I worked Monday and took the rest the week off. Big mistake. That was way too much time with my family. I knew that my sister’s first husband was a total dick, but I didn’t realize that this one could be such an asshole until he made my mom cry. Not like burst out in tears in front of everyone cry, but a few tears escape in the car on the way to the museum cry. Fucker. Nothing was right while they were here according to him. The kids didn’t eat enough, don’t go outside it’s too hot and you might get dirty (the kids are boys and they are supposed to be dirty), you’re not drinking enough, stop screaming, eat more, can’t you act like your 24 instead of 4. Seriously, he rode my oldest nephew (4) so much. No matter what he did, it wasn’t good enough or was wrong. It really pissed me off. I even had to ride in the car alone with him and tried to start a conversation and it went absolutely nowhere. It was very frustrating. They left yesterday, after lunch, which was about 5 hours earlier than originally planned.

So what did we do with those 5 hours? We went to Evel Knievel days, which was hot and nothing was really going on. We really just went to see the Vietnam Memorial Wall Replica. Then we gambled, and then we got groceries. Then we tried to stay up to watch the fireworks, which were supposed to start at 10:30 and by 10:45 I gave up and went to bed, then just as I was falling asleep at 11:30 the fucking things started going off…so I got up and watched them for a few minutes, then said, “Screw this, I’m going to bed”. And today has been pretty much doing little things in preparation to start my new schedule tomorrow. So now I am off to organize more.

Movie Plot Generator #2

Rutger Hauer stars as Cade McQueen, a cop who doesn’t play by the rules. When, Cade’s daughter Zoe (Hilary Duff) is gunned down, he goes deep undercover in the karaoke world to find the murderer. This gripping crime drama is set to an all-star soundtrack including Journey, Survivor and mega stars Air Supply. Randy Quaid and Katie Holms co-star.

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Thursday 13 #3

Thirteen Movies I Have Watched Repeatedly

Grease 2
Breakin’ 2 Electric Boogaloo
Top Gun
Fast Forward
Jewel of the Nile
The Day After Tomorrow
Coyote Ugly
Bad Boys
King Arthur
Pirates of the Caribbean

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1. Kathy
2. Deanna
3. Raggedy
4. Lady Jane

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Thursday, July 20, 2006

I hate that name...

Do you ever have one of those days where everything is going along just fine and then all of the sudden one comment brings your day down? Well that happened to me today, only it wasn't a comment it was a name. Kim. I hate that name. I always have. Long story short, she doesn't do much work now and she just got a new position where I am sure she will do even less work. That and I can't shake the thought that someone put in my head about her either blowing the boss or doing the boss or both. I think that thought is making me feel this weird way more than her getting the job. I knew she was going to get it...I was just holding out 3oz of hope that she wouldn't. Nothing is "official" yet...but the writing is on the wall.

Other than that, my day was good. There was some talk about having a staff meeting next Thursday, which sucks because we had one last week and sucks more because I am on vacation next Thursday and I would probably have to make a trip in to attend. I wouldn't get OT because well I am on vacation. Mom was all "what would they do if you were in Vegas?" Which is a good point, but she also needs to realize that I don't necessarily mind going in for the meeting. I am the one who is in charge of taking notes and getting the minutes done, which is fine, I am used to doing it. I enjoy doing it and I don't trust anyone else to take good notes. She has to go into a meeting next Thursday as well, which if I go in, leaves my sister and her family alone, but it is not like she is a stranger. I don't care if they go through my underwear drawer. I said to my mom a few weeks ago..."what if you were in Vegas?" She didn't respond. She just said that she has to go it...well so might I.

I have so much to do and it seems I have little time to do it. Oh well, that is my life and right now, I kind of like it.

Thursday 13 #2

Thirteen Random Songs on My MP3 Player

1. Human Touch - Rick Springfield

2. Hummingbird - Seals & Croft

3. Don't Stop Believin' - Journey

4. Heartbreaker - Dionne Warwick

5. I Want You - Savage Garden

6. Keep on Loving You - REO Speedwagon

7. Land of Confusion - Distured & Genesis

8. Beautiful People - Marilyn Manson

9. Dancing Queen - Abba

10. One Night Man - Ricky Martin

11. Rockin' the Paradise - Styx

12. Twist of Fate - Olivia Newton John

13. Reproduction - Grease 2 Cast

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Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Where is it?

So I was thinking a lot about my last job today. Actually just on the ride home, but still I thought about it most of the way home. Then I thought about how a year ago, I was jobless and sitting at home watching soap operas all day doing basically nothing. I think the construction on the drive home took me back to my long commute with the last job. This commute is so much easier, no curves, one pass that basically amounts to ¼ of the major pass on the old commute was an hour each way, two hours out of my day, plus that hour that they call lunch, but in reality was just letting you out of the building on a long leash. This job? Twenty minute commute each way, 8-4, paid and provided lunch. Sure there is no air conditioning and today I was almost sticking to my chair because it is so freaking hot. And, yeah there are bugs, big dragon flies, that for the most part keep to themselves, and moths, which I am enormously afraid of. And yesterday there was a bat, and a bee. But, 8 hours of that is so much better than the last job. All that, plus I get to do something that I really do love.

I am so freaking impatient. I ordered a dvd last week and I still haven’t gotten it yet. I ordered the dvd and a book and the book came yesterday. Like I really need either. The video I can’t find anywhere to rent, so I had to buy it. The book is of Jack Vetriano’s paintings.

Two days in a row now, I have exercised, so I am proud of myself for that. Doesn’t take much to make me happy.

Sunday, July 16, 2006

A romance that isn't

I have done something that I thought I would never do….

I bought and started to read a Harlequin romance novel.

I don’t know what happened. One minute I am looking for a Ridley Pearson book to complete my collection and the next thing I know, I have picked up a baby name book and am staring at romance novels. Then, as I am paying, I realize that I actually found one that piqued my interest. Oddly enough, I go outside to find that in fact hell is not freezing over as the temperature is soaring into the high 80s. Which, for a girl in Montana, is freaking hot.

I was going to try really hard this year to just deal with the heat and not complain about it…it’s not working. I like the summer months because the highways are not snowy and icy…but I hate the heat. It makes you all sweaty and sticky for no reason. It brings out bugs and allergies. For me, it is miserable. I keep wondering if skinny people are more comfortable than larger people in the summer. One day, I might find out the answer.

A Harlequin book? Really? Oh, I don’t know what is happening to me.

Well since dinner was disgusting, I am going to blow some points on cereal.

Movie Plot Generator #1

Coming Soon To A Theater Near You...

Scott Baio stars as a gangsta rapper, Sugar Lite who challenges the social mores of upper class societ to win the heart of the high school dream boat, Lana Riberio played by singing star Mariah Carey. Hector Elizondo co-stars as Alfonso Riberio, Lana's dad an influential city councilman determined to bring an end to gangsta rap. Willie Aames co-stars as Dr. Pepper, Sugar Lite's manager.

Friday, July 14, 2006

Magazine Whore...

I am a magazine whore. I just spent over $30 on magazines. I got the usual, Soap Opera Digest, US Weekly, People and In Touch. Then I picked up Ok!, TV Guide, & Life & Style. Then my volumes were out, Legacy and Inspirations. I haven’t even read Somerset Studios yet and now I have Legacy and Inspirations. To make it even worse, I just organized them as in what order to read them…Ok!, TV Guide, Life & Style, In Touch, Us Weekly, People, Soap Opera Digest, Legacy, Inspirations. I am a dork.

Speaking of my dorkiness, because I am so unpopular, I have decided to do a blog at blogspot…and still keep up my old Open Diary...for a while anyways...

The address, for the uninterested is…

I woke up this morning thinking that it was Saturday. I got up, turned off the alarm, turned off the fan, went pee and crawled back into bed, where I realized that the other bathroom light was on and I was like “Why is the light on so early on Saturday?” I rolled over in bed, snuggled in and then realized that I had not yet lived Friday. So, I got out of bed, reset the alarm and crawled back into bed for 20 minutes. Then I lived Friday.

The plan for the weekend is to go grocery and drug shopping, head to Anaconda for Art in the Park, back home, lunch, clean, take a nap, read my magazines…maybe, just maybe do the brother sister page in my uncle’s scrapbook and just take the weekend as it comes.

I started Weight Watchers…again. So far, I have lost 3 pounds. I weigh in on Sunday and am hoping to reach the 5 pound loss. I have to start exercising this week. I was supposed to start two weeks ago, then last week and now I have to. It does no good otherwise.

Thursday, July 13, 2006

Thursday 13 #1

Thirteen Things about Lady Penguin

1. Lady Penguin is not my real name

2. I have had 9 jobs since I graduated from college

3. I have liked 3 of my 9 jobs

4. I miss my baby boy Ike more than anyone will ever know

5. I like Barry Manilow and Marilyn Manson

6. I live at home with my best friend

7. My best friend is my mom

8. I might not be able to have children

9. I work in know, criminals

10. I love hockey

11. VH1 and CBS are my two favorite channels

12. I read fan fiction

13. I am on a diet

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